I just came back to Rm 2003 from almost an hour and a half prayer time at St. Luke’s Chapel for a rosary and some daily readings from Fr. Fiel’s Bible Diary gift (thanks Fads for this). I already felt a bit hungry after a late breakfast. But I really opted to spend time with Him, and ask for guidance and peace of mind especially at this very moment.

Today is Kaye’s surgery for her slipped disc. I never thought things would actually reach this point. After almost a month of therapies and meds that we thought might work to correct and restore Kaye’s posture and agility, it finally arrived. Actually, as I am writing this, Kaye’s still undergoing surgery. Good thing that his cousin, Dr. Joel Lazaga, who’s a orthopedic surgeon, is the one who’s taking care of the operation. Not to mention Dr. Lazaga’s wife, Yogi who also happens to be Kaye’s anesthesiologist, is also there inside for support during the whole ordeal. So, I am pretty sure, Kaye is in very good hands.

But honestly, I am still in worried state. Of course, a lot of things are to expect. Will she be ok already? Will there be complications (i pray wala!)? Will things be a lot better for her, more so, normal as we’re hoping she would eventually after this? So many questions… But right now, I just don’t want to be bothered by it. I want to be strong when all these are over. I want her to feel that hey finally she’ll get to enjoy life again… spend time with the piglets more, report to work, go to the mall or just do anything without fretting on something painful that refrains her from doing what she loves best. I guess those are the things that she needs right now. Maybe after a few days of recuperating and all, she’ll be good as new. And I do hope she becomes fine. So maybe, I could again start fetching her at the office, go home together, stroll the mall on the way to the service, eat at McDo or even grab to-go delights from DQ. I know it’s tough to be strong at times, but I guess I’m only human. Fear might set in, even uncertainties can really play up with your mind. I guess that’s the purpose of prayer. Communing with the Lord does great wonders in all areas — mind, body and spirit. And I did needed that awhile ago. That’s the reason why I have to delay writing this post and first talk to Him.

Now I feel more prepared to wait. Because I believe He’s done His part of staying with Kaye during the whole operation. And of course, with all the prayers that may have bombarded the heavens for the past 2 hours from relatives, close friends and dabloggerkads, including mine, am pretty sure Kaye will be back in her “brand new” self after she’s moved to the Recovery Room. Besides, I did promise her that, after everything has passed, I will see her in a while…

See you in 2 hours, Be…